One of my goals is to become physically fit. To lose this weight in a way that is sustainable and doesn't kill me in the process. Some say to go whole hog and give up everything "bad", workout as much as you can, in general give up on a happy life. Or that is how I see it.
I know, after several failed attempts at losing weight, that I am not one to be able to live a life with no carbs or soda's. I just cannot do it. If you tell me that I cannot have something, I become obsessed with it.
When I left my job in accounting to become a stay at home mom, I wanted to finally conquer this weight issue. A little history.
I have fought my weight my whole life. I was always the heavier one, filling out in the girly bits at a rather young age. I have a picture of me in 4th grade, where I had to wear a training bra. By the time I was in 8th grade, I started to pack on a few pounds. Once I had my first boyfriend, I set off on the diet roller coaster. I would skip breakfast. Have Cheetos and a Coke for lunch. Dinner would be what my mom would cook, but then I would give most of it to my neighbor when he would come visit.
The Cheetos diet didn't last long, but because I was active the weight stayed relatively normal. This changed when I moved in with my father in my senior year of high-school. There was a lot of stress during this time. Combine that along with horrible eating habits learned from my dad, I gained 50 pounds in a matter of months. When I graduated from high-school, I weighed 190.
Over the years since, I have weighed about the same. Occasionally blooming up to 250. But I never went above that. That is until this past year. After I had my second child, I managed to get down to 200. I still had weight to lose, but I was comfortable and felt sexy. Then I stopped breastfeeding, my husband lost his job (twice) and I ended up working a desk job for 10-12 hours a day. Needless to say, my weight skyrocketed to 278.
When I quit my job, my main focus was to develop a routine with the girls and find my new normal. I was not really concerned with jumping into a weight-loss routine. One thing I knew for sure was that I could not follow a strict plan. I am a very stubborn person. If you tell me I cannot have something, I will go out of my way to get it. I know, huge personality fault.
So once I found my new normal with the girls, I decided I needed to do something about my diet. One this was to reduce the amount of eating out. This was easy, because being on a limited budget we could not eat out. I found ways to add more fruit and vegetables into my diet. I accomplished this by ordering Bountiful Baskets and planning my menu around the items I received.
Another thing that has helped, is my goal to get my two year old to find of love of fruits and vegetable. She has been a meat eater since she started eating solids. After a year and a half with hubby, she rarely ate veggies or fruit. In my quest to develop her pallet, I found myself eating more veggies and fruit.
I have not given up soda, but I have cut down. I used to get a large coke on the way to work in the morning. This would be followed up with a 20 oz coke at lunch. More often than not I would have a can of coke with dinner. All this Coke, started to accelerate my insulin resistance (a symptom of PCOS) into full blown diabetes. I was constantly feeling like I was going to pass out and had horrible headaches. I knew something had to change. I have since switched to drinking water and sparkling water. I love carbonation and sparkling water gives me that. I still have a can of coke a day, but no longer do I have it all day long.
With cutting back on portions, adding fruit and veggies. Reducing a lot of my soda intake. I have managed to lose 10 pounds in the past month. The first month I was able to maintain my weight after gaining about a pound or two a week for a year. Once I found my footing, the weight has seemed to melt off. I do not feel deprived. I do not feel like I am dieting. I am doing what is right for me.
I have a LONG way to go, but I will stick to it. One day I will be back to that Happy place.
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